Spinning top

Some days there is no difference between being awake or asleep – days and nights seamlessly melt into one. I catch myself dreaming during the day and find myself hyper-awake during the night. My mind often struggles to slow down to a pace that would put me to sleep. I’m about 4 days past my bedtime now and only take deep breaths once in 2 days – I’m back in my comfort zone where everything runs high on energy, emotions and imagination. When I manage to fall asleep without fidgeting, I often dream. Remember how the spinning top wobbled, but never stopped spinning in the final shot of Inception? Whenever my mum shows up, I know I’m dreaming. It shakes me a little, but I’m relieved that I can’t loose her again, because it’s all just a dream.

Will loosing people ever become easier?